"Beginning therapy is a pretty long process. When you sign up for therapy… or seemingly sign up for it, often you are sent to a psychologist who asks you general questions to see whether or not you really need therapy and medications or either or. For me it was a pretty empty process because I was asked really personal questions in an extremely formal matter, which in the end left me crying with no tissues. This person then send you to a therapist who checks up on your medication and talks about your personal life a liiiiitttle bit. This is where I stayed because honestly I don’t feel like going through the rest of the process which would probably do me good, but you know I kind of like my depression and I will tell you why later.

"In these sessions, you will be asked how your medication is doing. They will ask you if you are having any problems with it and if you have had any severe symptoms of depression and/or if you are feeling better. This is a point in the therapy where you are like “Man, I will never get better.” But it’s really not true. People have gotten better before… I think.

"Anyway this kind of therapy doesn’t do any of the cool “You hate your father” stuff. It’s just straightforward therapy, not really psychotherapy, and I got to the point of operating normally with it. I could do better but then again that’s my choice.

"That’s exactly what it is: Your individual choice. You choose what you do. What you will take and what you will not take. Which brings me to medicine.

"Medicine are very interesting things. I was started on Wellbutrin, which is a relatively harsh medication. It didn’t help me at all, and its side effects can be near fatal, causing seizures and the like. So, I then was put on the big P and I’m doing OK. These medicines have varying dosage levels, which can affect individual people differently. They work on your chemicals while you work on your thought processes. A better explanation of this is that for depressed patients, some medicines “pep” you up. Instead of staying in a state of doing nothing, Prozac puts you in a state in which you feel like you can do something. So you do. Sometime this effect can be a little annoying or a bit too much for the system. This can cause a person to me overly active and jittery. On the other side of the coin however, medicines assist manic people by slowing their system down.

"If you feel like you are depressed and need help contact your physician for information on therapy and therapy groups as well as how you can be diagnosed if depression is your problem."