Today was the first day of midterms, and as luck would have it, I had the last period of the day free to go home, but no ride. So rather, my friend and I (who also had fourth period free) went running near the lake until the busses came, and we discussed a few things. We're both incredibly shy, and found out that our experiences with people have been similar because of it...

People who know me often say, "Before I met you, I thought you were a snob because you never talked." Why would anyone think that? It's exactly the opposite!! I don't talk because I'm afraid of everyone, not because I'm "too good" for everyone! And I think most shy people feel the same way!

Outgoing people, I'm sure, have no idea where I'm coming from, just like I have no idea how outgoing people can be the way they are. But they still are the way they are, and similarly, so I am. I can't help being shy, and despite how hard some people may try to "break me out of my shell," it's just never going to happen. But some people don't understand that, and don't understand why I'm so demure, and write it off as snobbiness.

Maybe you will never know me. But realize that it's not because I want it that way. It's not because I'm too good for you, that I will never talk to you. It's because you're too good for me, so I have to wait for you to reach out to me first. It has nothing at all with me being a snob.

I just re-read this whole thing and realized I had a few references to pop culture lyrics. Damn those brilliant marketing people with their brainwashing.

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