I just got an email from my brother (whom barely none of my friends know about- yes, I do have an older brother, he's a physics teacher in NJ). He thinks that a lot of my problems can be attributed to the fact that a year of my life has been chopped off by skipping a grade.

So that got me thinking, and I don't think that's so at all. In fact, I think that skipping a grade probably alleviates my problems more than if I were a sophomore right now. If you know me at all, you know I hated fifth grade, and I could not stand being in the same grade as any of my old classmates, even now.

I would be bored out of my mind with the schoolwork. I would be surrounded by people who have hated me for five years. I have to admit, I like being one of the youngest people in my grade.

In addition, I know of a lot of other juniors who've skipped a year. There are at least six of us who are young enough to be sophomores, maybe more. None of them are screwed up (or if they are, they're good at hiding it). So just because I'm messed up, it's obviously from a factor outside of chopping a year off my life.

A lot of people have known me for months and months until they found out I skipped a grade. For example, a girl I've known since freshman year just found out a month ago that I was almost a full year younger than her. I don't even tell anyone about it anymore, because it makes me sound like I'm bragging. The subject only comes up now if someone asks me how old I am, and the connection "hey, you're pretty young for a junior...." is made.

Anyhoo, I'm not sure what point I'm trying to make. Maybe I just wanted an excuse to brag, since I've stopped myself from doing it in real life, so what's left of my fragile ego piles up in my stomach until I spew it on my webpage. Who knows. I have to admit, if I were someone else reading this, I'd be like "shut the hell up, you must think you're some big shot or something." Believe me, I don't. Just read the rest of the self-deprecating material on my site.

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